Death of a loved one

The only two concrete things in our reality is birth and death; what's in between is unpredictable.
Each experience we go through teaches us something and allows us to grow. Couple of days ago, somebody really dear to my best friend passed away. There was a lot of tears. All the plans we made for that evening were instantly erased and family took priority. I too had a realization. What if someone really close to you passes away. Unpredictably. The only thing you can hold on is your last conversation, last text, last time you saw that person. That is, if you even can remember it. And there is nothing you can do; you can not go back in time and spend more time with them. You can only regret that you didn't call them couple of days ago and tell them that you love them just one more time.
Nope, life does not really work like that. Which puts even more emphasis on today, living in present and appreciating what we have. Because the next minute you can lose something so dear and close, you will be in denial about it. Rush of life comes at you fast. Death can unpredictably sweep you of your stable ground and make you cry and scream your lungs out.
I am trying to deal with this heavy stuff, comforting my friend and make her laugh. This is not something you can get over in a week, or month. In fact i don't know if you can get over death of family member. If i find out my sister or my cousin passed away, i will not behave as i think i will.
All i know is each day it gets a little bit better. That's all you can really ask for.

On some brighter notes, i am gong to see "Raging Earth" ft. "The Cataracts" with Eric and Jeff. Should be fun. I'm cracking open a Four Loko in a bit to start my evening. Wearing white t-shirt and brining markers, because i think there will be black light. Woop-Woop.

Live.
Every day.