I need to re-read "The Alchemist" by Paulo Coelho

Thursday, after my shift at Arts Tent, i went to Bapst gallery for a friend (Rob) of a friend (Bobby) opening reception. It had something to do with hamburger man and him saving something (I may have a mix between that and the CCE show, but more on that later.) I enjoyed the paintings and the long titles.
Then i ventured to AHANA Summit in the rat, with lots of food and tons of people from all culture clubs and Ahana related business. They were giving out things and such, but Slavic Club is under the radar (whom i was representing with Svetlana and Victor, who also left before me) so there was no need to stay long after i ate the food and took a balloon from table decor.
Friday morning (like 9am) i was suppose to hang out with couple of 4-6th graders but plans didn't work out and i ended up not going. At work (since we now have another superviser who's new and keeps looking at student's schedules) i had to do a section "F" shift with this kid Bradley. It turns out, he's good friends with Winston too, so after work, we ventured to ze Gate and toked here and there.
The evening included CCE show (Superdead) and several episodes of Heroes. Michelle and I are on season 3. Damn awesome :)

Saturday i again had to wake up early to wake and bake with Nicole at Walsh. At 9am there was a BCPD auction, where cameras, ipods, bikes, jewelry etc was sold at super low prices (like $20 or less). It was very fun, people from students, to faculty, to parents(?) to some random people. Couple of my friends scored cameras and watches. Great time that was. Mostly due to entertaining and winston.
From the auction, i went straight to OTE reunion at Brighton campus. Nice bbq, only it was quite cold... Oh well, at least i got to see some freshman faces :) (and faculty and preceptors too i guess)
From 2-4pm i was again involced with Arts Fest. This time it was children's activities and i was allowed to face paint some kids. Lot's of fun. First kid sits in my chair and wants me to draw him a deer. His picture was not good. I was just getting used to how to actually paint on faces to he's representation was of 4legged blue animal. Good thing there were no mirrors at our station. I made several spiders, butterflies, a tiger, and couple of abstract pieces on couple of my friends. Total fun.


Sunday i went to ceramics with Travis (w) and showed him some ropes of clay. He had skipped all of his classes until 2weeks before finals... Hmm, we'll see if he will be able to make enough crap to showcase.
Then I cleaned the dorm a bit, and was bailed by several freshmen on dinner plans we made yesterday. No big deal, my heart will heal on. Heal on.
Now i'm about to head for some soup Michelle made and couple more episodes of Heroes.

Today is May 1st. This means: ~1 week of classes, ~1 week of finals, ~1 week of party before graduation.


These pictures i got from here. Satirical Art Drawings by Pawel Kuczynski.

Working on 10pg paper due tomorrow

This guy knows whats up. Saw several clips of him on Ted about children's creativity and education today. Really good stuff, though i haven't seen this yet.


Quick recap of things before the week is over:
Tuesday, i called out of work, and hung out with Michelle in the morning. It was nice, we watched Heroes and drank some tea. Great way to begin my day. Then i realized i had a 10pg due next day. What a disappointment. I was not able to go to sex toy bingo at Roggies that evening due to my "work". Please, i do less work than any of my roommates. Less than majority of my friends. Oh it feels so good. With such a low workload this semester, i truly enjoy each day and involve myself in things such as Arts Fest.

Around 5pm i went to Faculty Dining room for Mays Mentoring Program closing ceremony. Chatted with Victoria from OTE (she was sittign across from me at the table) and saw Ngoc. Seniors got a little something as a graduation gift a metal license plate that says Alumni Boston College. Super cool, all I need now is a car.

Wednesday:
After 5 hours of sleep went to ceramics to find out couple of my parts broken so i had to remake them. sigh. good thing i didn't put much work into them, otherwise i'd be quite upset. I was not able to submit my "Don't" piece to Art's Fest, so only three of my paintings made it. What if i sell couple? Who knows!
Later, went to Arts Fest volunteer meeting. Got a t-shirt, which i will be rocking out for couple of days. Also got a huge pin, [2.5in wide i'd say]. Natalie, Vinny, Kevin and Niel were also there. Interesting thought: among 30+ people, only 4 guys were present at the meeting. This goes with a majority of Art's related events and activities. ALL RUN BY WOMEN. I don't know if people realize this. I'd say it is a big deal. Art club is run mostly by women too. It is a very interesting demographic. Glad there is at least ONE area that women are in charge and it's the largest people gatherer activity (80+ events in three days) that brings people on BC campus after football games.
Picked up my Yearbook. I look good, and so does Michelle. I haven't really looked through it yet. Only $130 cash money.

Thursday plans:
Currently at work, then going to be at the Art Tent chilling, grilling. Mostly chilling. It does look like it's going to rain, which sucks, but at least all the tent activities will be alright :)



First 20 pages of the book "1000 awesome things"

Couple of short clips. Reality is what you make it.

Awesome short film:

This one time... from nelson boles on Vimeo.

35+ years of creation a Rude Goldberg machine from toothpicks. Amazing

Scott Weaver's Rolling through the Bay from Learning Studio on Vimeo.

I enhance my reality with imagination, abstract and outlets. Make sure to have something. Even anything would go.

Shit I'm currently deleting from my Facebook.

Yes. i don't think i can quit Facebook, but i surely get rid of lot of useless information. And hopefully some "friends". Let's be real. If i don't interact with you or haven't been EVER, we should not be friends.


A complete nonbeliever.

Some things i like:
mar balls__________________________________
hammocks__________________________________
theater__________________________________
chemistry__________________________________
philosophy__________________________________
death__________________________________
afterlife__________________________________
Hairdye_________________________________
books about drugs____________________________
Tattoos__________________________________
Piercings__________________________________
religion__________________________________
paper clips__________________________________
Chinese Health balls__________________________
Mohawks__________________________________
henna__________________________________
green tea__________________________________
paint__________________________________
sexual positions_____________________________
bare feet__________________________________
nakedness__________________________________
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There are (3) three (3) sides of a coin.



I don't mind if you're straight. Just don't flaunt it in public.
When are you going to tell your parents that you are straight?
So when exactly did you decide to become straight?
(c)Another Perspective


“Life is full of beauty. Notice it. Notice the bumble bee, the small child, and the smiling faces. Smell the rain, and feel the wind. Live your life to the fullest potential and fight for your dreams.” -Ashley Smith

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HAPPINESS QUOTES:

“If you want to be happy, be.”
~Leo Tolstoy

“You need to learn to be happy by nature, because you’ll seldom have the chance to be happy by circumstance.”
~Lavetta Sue Wegman

“Happiness is not a state to arrive at, but a manner of traveling.”
~Margaret Lee Runbeck

“If you observe a really happy man you will find him building a boat, writing a symphony, educating his son, growing double dahlias in his garden, or looking for dinosaur eggs in the Gobi desert. He will not be searching for happiness as if it were a collar button that has rolled under the radiator. He will not be striving for it as a goal in itself. He will have become aware that he is happy in the course of living life twenty-four crowded hours of the day.”
~W. Beran Wolfe

“Happiness is a conscious choice, not an automatic response.”
~Mildred Barthel

“If only we’d stop trying to be happy we could have a pretty good time.”
~Edith Wharton

“The foolish man seeks happiness in the distance; the wise grows it under his feet.”
~James Openheim

“If you ever find happiness by hunting for it, you will find it, as the old woman did her lost spectacles, safe on her own nose all the time.”
~Josh Billings

“Often people attempt to live their lives backwards; they try to have more things, or more money, in order to do more of what they want, so they will be happier. The way it actually works is the reverse. You must first be who you really are, then do what you need to do, in order to have what you want.”
~Margaret Young

“There can be no happiness if the things we believe in are different from the things we do.”
~Freya Stark, The Journey’s Echo

“Happiness is when what you think, what you say, and what you do are in harmony.”
~Mahatma Gandhi

“We are no longer happy so soon as we wish to be happier.”
~Walter Savage Landor

“The search for happiness is one of the chief sources of unhappiness.”
~Eric Hoffer, The Passionate State of Mind, 1954

“A man’s as miserable as he thinks he is.”
~Seneca

“My advice to you is not to inquire why or whither, but just enjoy your ice cream while it’s on your plate.”
~Thornton Wilder

“The best way to cheer yourself up is to try to cheer somebody else up.”
~Mark Twain


From http://isitpossibletobehappy.com/
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“Is God willing to prevent evil, but not able?
Then he is not omnipotent.
Is he able, but not willing?
Then he is malevolent.
Is he both able and willing?
Then whence cometh evil?
Is he neither able nor willing?
Then why call him God?”

Нельзя быть одновременно веселым, трезвым и умным.

Пока мы жаловались на жизнь, она закончилась...

"Just because you are a character doesn't mean that you have character."
Pulp Fiction. Mr. Wolf

"Sex is like jellybeans. Sometimes you want to know what you just put in your mouth."
(Planned Parenthood)

"Real life is messy, inconsistent, and it's seldom when anything ever really gets resolved."
(Watchmen)

"Всегда агрессивное меньшинство победит аморфное обывательское болото." (Скины: Русь пробуждается, Дмитрий Нестеров)

"Guys are like cups simple and easy. girls are like microwaves, they have too many buttons."
(Dzmitry)

-what do you do when you cant do nothing, but there is nothing you can do?
-you do what you can.
[The Boondocks]

"Use your head, can't you, use your head. You're on earth, there's no cure for that!" - Hamm (Endgame)

"There is one more thing: its been emotional"
[Lock, Stock, and Two Smoking Barrels]

Были же люди как люди, и вдруг все сразу стали кретины. Парадокс. (Брат 2)

"Im not alone, im just fucking free"

"Never underestimate the power of denial"
(American Beauty)

"College is awesome, because its just like in the movies, only better, because its real life!".
(Dzmitry)

Those who were born to crawl
Are not ment to fly;
But they can crawl up so high
That those who were born to fly
Will crawl before them. (Dzmitry)

"How many baguettes can a french girl fit into her mouth?" (Dzmitry)

"I thought the Black Panthers were black and wore leather." (Dzmitry)


Жизнь - это то, что происходит с нами, пока мы строим планы.

Я вдыхаю внимание...

Счастье - не точка назначения, а принцип путешествия!!!

Всех излечит, исцелит Добрый Сtrl+Аlt+Dеlеtе.

JULES:
"There's a passage I got memorized.
Ezekiel 25:17. "The path of the righteous man is beset on all sides by the inequities of the selfish and the tyranny of evil men.
Blessed is he who, in the name of charity and good will, shepherds the weak through the valley of the darkness. For he is truly his brother's keeper and the finder of lost children.
And I will strike down upon thee with great vengeance and furious anger those who attempt to poison
and destroy my brothers. And you will know I am the Lord when I lay my vengeance upon you."

Ты за что задержанных избил?
За дело. Плеер верни. (Брат 2)

Life is good.

- You know what's good?
- What?
- Life... you know what's even better?
- What?
- A GOOD life.

Zebras and llamas are the same.
Chill Pill

Do you think mormon people have anal (oral) sex?
Can we fieldtrip THERE?
Are you DEAF? can you SEE ?
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MOVIES:
Pulp Fiction (I even have it in Belarussian)
Memento
Amelie
The Professional (Leon)
Run Lola Run
Lock, Stock and Two Smoking Barrels
Resident Evil 1
Wild Things
The Million Dollar Hotel
The Shawshank Redemption
The Green Mile
Sin City
American Beauty
American History X
Ghost Dog: The Way of the Samurai
The 51st State (Formula 51)
The Village
Pan's Labyrinth
Cashback (both short and full)
Garden State
Fight Club
Forest Gump
District 9
Phone Booth
Seven Pounds



OTHER REALLY GOOD ONCES:
Blow
Batman: The Dark Knight
Edward Scissorhands
300
Constantine
9
The 40-Year-Old Virgin
Grindhouse (Deathproof > Planet Terror)
Borat
Kung Foo Panda
Boondock Saints
League of Extraordinary Gentlemen
The Departed
Angels & Demons
The Hangover

Pictures evoking...

i took these from Here.
These particular ones evoke something in me:

Phili and DC trip over weekend

For Easter Break I went back to CT to hang out with my mothership and my sister. We left on Friday morning, hung out at Phili zoo and went to DC.

I wore a BC sweatshirt that Michelle's mom got me. Never really had a good time/place for it so it was nice to wear it. Saw bunch of animals. Isn't that what you do in the zoo? I took a journal with me, but i wrote nothing in it.

Then the drive to DC followed. Mi madre made several wrong turns so it took a bit more than anticipated. All good though. We stayed at CQ - Club Quarters on 17th and I streets. Very nice hotel, business oriented, but WALKING distance to White House, 10min.
It was my first time to go to Washington. I almost went the wrong way (against one way sign), and was wondering why the guy behind me was beeping. He was just warning me that going right was not a good idea. I learned quick.
Friday evening was tiring, we didn't go out, it was crappy rainy weather. We ate a bunch of home-made sandwiches.

Saturday was a bit cold in the morning but it ended up being not bad. We woke up early, got some foods, and went to check out a bunch of things:
The White House
Lincoln Memorial
WWII Memorial
Korean War Memorial
Washington Monument
Ulysses S Grant Memorial
US Capitol
National Museum of African Art
Sackler Gallery
Smithonian Castle
National Air and Space Museum
National Museum of American Indian

It was really awesome to check out many museums for free. There was a whole strip of them on both sides. Easy to navigate with a map. Monkeys Grasp for the Moon was a really interesting piece that stretched three stories high. Each one a representation of the word 'monkey' in a different language or writing system were linked. Even Braille was included. Cool stuff. (by Xu Bing)





Our feet were in quite pain. No pain, no gain. We wanted gain. We took a bus to check out Eastern Market. It was a nice representation of Russian "Komarovka" (bazaar).

On our way back we took a metro. It took us like 10min to figure out how to get a ticket, even though there were clear step by step directions. The ticket had a picture of panda on it. Wonder why. My sister wondered first.
Sunday morning we didn't go anywhere but drove and were stuck in traffic for quite some time. No biggls. It was fun to chit chat with mi madre about foods and other topics and yet again realize how annoying 11year old sisters can be. It's all good, we were all teens once. It'll get better ;) I keep telling her, once she's 15-16 it will be easier. Easier than when you're 11-12. There will be problems and stuff to deal with regardless of age. I even hear some 'adults' have troubles. How weird that the world we're living in is not perfect. How weird! Human creatures. silly organisms.

Things I learned: DC's zip is 20036. At least where we were. Also, internet and GPS make it incredibly easy to plan things and find things.

Now time to head back to BC. In a little bit my mom will drive me back. Only a month until graduation. Damn. Crazy.
Always weird to have this "home" feeling. I know it's more tied to people than places but it is still hard to grasp. One thing at a time.

What teachers make

In case you forget :)


Also, I will be using this A LOT for reading online blogs and what not:
http://www.spreeder.com/

And this is another mad long video (57min) about human behavioral biology. Haven't saw it yet, but soon will.

Marathon Monday and Carnival

Where do i even begin? I should have written more about these past couple of days. But they were so soaked in awesome, i could hardly find some time to jot it down. Until it is Tuesday (19th) and I'm working in Reserves.

Sunday was a Carnival at O'neill Plaza. This whole Mile21 business is fun.
BC will now have a weekend of awesome things to do before Marathon Monday. They're starting a tradition. Good thing i got to experience this at least once. So fried dough, cotton candy and fun things to do. All free. Just gotta wait in line. But a mere 10min walking distance to THIS? Nobody expected it to be so great.
Sunday did not end then. I also went to Michelle's brother's birthday party which had Justin Beiber pinata filled with nips. Enough said.

Marathon Monday was a great celebration of drunk cheering and much more. Like marathon runners dressed in full guerrilla suits. And the time we missed Eric, our roommate, who was running the marathon, but earlier than expected. Manet had Jungle Juice and Punch. Both VERY potent concoctions of beverages. Didn't stop us from going back and forth to marathon and cheer on runners. So much energy was in the air. So many people. This might be one of few days that drunken cheers and screams and beneficial to those who have been running for hours.


This is my gas mask, by the way. Josh just wanted to try it on. I got many compliments during marathon when i was wearing it. Or people just gave me looks. Both were fun. So many people were outside, during a wonderful weather. Everyone was having tons of fun. I was just reading facebook and people thank Marathon Monday, and booze for an amazing weekend. What can i say, i am one of those fools.
The drinking continued with occasional Winston breaks. I wore all yellow.

Taking a nap around 4pm-6ish was the best decision. Drinking in the morning is tiring, takes a lot of energy. lift the cup up, take a sip, put it down. rinse and repeat.

On the Purple horizon of Haze, we prepared some oil for baking treats for some friends and I as a celebration prior to Easter break, which starts Thursday, April 21st.
See what i did there?..

The Day i had a balloon.

"What makes you interesting isn’t just what you’ve experienced, but also what you haven’t experienced." There was a little flea market at O'Neill plaza, from flags and earrings to scarfs and other nonsense. There were several culture club tables as i saw them in the early part of the day, but by the time i got back, tables were empty but the balloons were still there. I took one and tied it to my water bottle. It was awesome. That was Thursday.
Evening of Thursday I had Table Talk about what it is to be an adult and what those 1-4 formative years after college before jumping into career mean to your vocational search. (Wow, i'm sneezing so much as i'm writing this...)

Had lunch with Amanda in front of Hillside because it was nice, though a bit windy.
She's planning on Peace Corp and I am so happy for her. She will do great things with her next couple of years. It is very interesting to talk to seniors and how many of them (at least those of my friends) can appreciate the unknown future and learn to take life as it goes. Getting a diploma from a university is just a small portion that is learning. We find out about ourselves so much more during these couple of years stuffed with experience and opportunity. One just have to take a chance.


Friday was a day of silence which again was such a wonderful tool of awareness and reflection. I actually enjoy not speaking for a good reason and see myself and my thoughts throughout the day.

Amy took a picture because i came to work like this. Good thing the phone did not ring.

James Franco came and premiered "The Broken Tower" at BC. I won a lottery ticket to the viewing and Q&A. It was confusing and odd but after James explained what he was trying to show (after all, i had no idea who the poet was...) it made more sense. He's really funny and awesome guy. Glad i had an opportunity to see him live.
Obviosly this was not enough for the weekend, so right after Q&A, i went back to my room to pregame for a spring concert featuring Wale, J.Cole, Dead Prez. It kinda sucked. Not as much fun as i thought it would be. We were sober halfway through. All good though. Jason & I went to Ruby to see some people and have some drinks.

Kevin made a BOMB long island ice tea. Was Friday? or another day? Does it really matter?

Saturday morning Michelle, Jeff, and I went to Graffiti War (themed "Dreams") and made some sick spray paint thang. i didn't take a picture. What a fail, but i hope duing art's fest it will be hung. We can even take it after it's over. It'd be cool!


Random thought: thinking about picking up running this summer, depending on what i will be doing with myself. I know i don't really enjoy running that much, but i think i can learn to enjoy it. Just gotta do small steps.

Physics Final done. No homework until AFTER Easter.

Currently, my sister's favorite band is "Sick Puppies". Naturally, i had to check them out, and turns out they're not bad. For an 11 year old taste :) I guess her taste of music is somewhat shaped by her brothers. But I also wonder what will she like as she gets older. Our tastes change. Or stay the same.
Also found This great link called "The Awakening". a Good read I'd say. Buddhist. ish.

Acoustics, My Mother's Flea Bag, & Archery.

Acoustics were awesome. They had really good songs and Michelle sang some of them too. Winston made the music sound even better. Stopped by couple friends who were pre-gaming before going to "The Machine" for dyke night. I didn't feel like spending money and also it wouldn't be much for for me there. So we went to My Mother's Fleabag show which was a hilarious success.
The evening did not stop there, however. Upon my return to the dorm, i was notified that one of our suit mates passed out drunk in the bathroom of Lower and was brought back to our place, where he passed out in our bathroom. Drinking too much, friend? Seems like you out to know your limits by senior year but I guess it takes longer for some people to learn.

Morning of Sunday was pleasant. Winston, food, Michelle. and Archery. Never done that before but it was fun. At some point i shot the arrow (18m away) almost at the bullseye. i even won $3. SNAP (Society of Native American Peoples) does a good job offering unique events. Last one, we made dream catchers.
It was somewhat tough at first, simply because i haven't used a real bow. But once i got the hang of it, i found it fun. Bruised myself couple of times, but nothing i can't handle. The ride with Jordan and Paola was also really chill. Nice music, weather, simple drive away from BC. I enjoyed it.
Now, after several rounds of COD i shall be planning on doing my homework. Though i may not do as much as anticipated.

OTE position - denied. Life goes on.

Signed up myself, Michelle, and Jeff for a graffiti war on the 16th. Hope it's fun.
Had two papers, which is two papers more than I usually have per week. But both not bad, one on "The siege" a book about raising an autistic child and the strategies to help her acclimate into the real world. Really interesting read. Another paper was for Capstone. I interviewed Kwasi about his vocation, and joy at his work. He's working as a diplomat in the library, but getting paid as a manager of student services? or something along those lines.

Thursday went to trivia in White Horse Tavern with Kristin and Steve. It was mucho funo. We got three pitchers, and Michelle and i also brought a Four Loko for extra kicks. I was drunk. I haven't been in a while. We came back to watch an episode of Heroes. John had Winston over his place. We all got friendly.

Friday was super nice weather, much like today. I didn't go out much, but painted instead. Found out that i didn't get OTE preceptor for the summer. That really sucks because i was looking to be doing that this summer. One door closes = the other one opens. Now i have ZERO clue of what am i doing after May 23rd. I'm a little lost but i know i can't be taking it to heart. Things will work out. Always.
Got a great quote from Honest Tea: "Things turn out best for the people who make the best of the way things turn out." - John Wooden (Can't wait to get old and have as many wrinkles as this guy)

Have lunch with Bobby A. in half an hour. On today's agenda i also am planning to head to ceramics afterwords to check out some of my fired platforms for my little dudes. Gonna submit those for Art's Fest. Along with several paintings. Have to look the dates. This is a continuation of a painting i started on my birthday, Feb 25th.


Last one is called "Side Effect" since it was just that :)



These are also couple of interesting pictures i stubmled upon. Yeah i guess i do this more often than i thought.





Jefferson Airplane is always a thing to enjoy. Been singing this song twice in two days!

Some Stumbled Street (S)art.

I do enjoy stumbling here and there. Mostly there.

How love Works

I will write a poem out of saved texts Michelle sent me. Rule: I can not just take one word, it has to be two+ words next to each other.



These are the raw texts:
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You just made me grin like a mofo :)
When I think about how much i wish i was with you, it almost hurts. I'm not lyng when i say i really, really need a hug. Mostly just because i'd be in your arms.
You're an amazing guy who makes this special girl smile. A lot :)
You're always on my mind. I'm glad you said it too, because i wanted to say it but couldn't. You are so important to me.
I love you :) You're one of the very best things in my life.
knock knock. Who's there? A smile. A smile who? A smile that's going to last all day because of my amazing boyfriend :) I hope you have a nice day my love.
I don't realize how much i miss you sometimes. And then all at once it takes all i have not to jump in the car and drive to see you and kiss you and hug you.
I couldn't wait to text you later. i got back to the room last night so full of happiness and love i felt like i was going to burst. I know i'm going to have a good day :) i love you so much. Have a wonderful day my dear, I'll see you later.
haaaaahahahahhaha oh i love you :):)
Have tight sleep night :)
wait... why would i be unconscious???
you know, no one can make my day like you can :)
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This is what they looked like after i took what i needed (sounds gruesome? it is?)

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made me grin like [taken] :)
When I [taken] [taken] i [taken] with you [taken]. I'm [taken] [taken] [taken] really need a hug. Mostly [taken] i'd be in your arms.
You're an [taken] who makes [taken] smile. A lot :)
You're [taken] [taken]. [taken] [taken] , because i [taken] it but couldn't. You are so important to me.`
[taken] :) You're one of the very best things in my life.
knock knock. [taken] a smile who? [blank] because of my amazing boyfriend :) I hope you have a nice day my love.
I [taken] how much i[taken] . And [taken] [taken] [taken] not [taken] in the car [taken] [taken] you [taken] you and hug you.
[taken] to text you later. i got back to the room [taken] so full of [taken] [taken] [taken]. [taken] i'm going to have a good day :) i love you so much. [taken] [blank] [taken] [taken] later.
haaaaahahahahhaha oh i love you :):)
Have tight sleep night :)
wait... why would i be unconscious???
you know, no one [taken] like you can :)
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What I came up with in conclusion: it is REALLY easy to write poetry. I finished this piece in just two hours. So many times I wish I had an extra word, (that texts simply lacked) to make the line shine with rhythm or humor. Yet I didn’t and only was able to work with what I had. My result is below and honestly, I think I did a pretty good job. Friggin ego…

How love works (a.k.a. Recycled Love)
This special girl – amazing guy don't realize.
It takes a lot with you. All I have.
I couldn’t wait. You said it too. Miss you sometimes.
I felt like happiness and love. I'm glad.

When I say I was going to burst,
I was not lying. It almost hurts…
Who's there? A smile? “Have a wonderful day,
I love you. I'll see you.” You can make my day.

Then all at once:
A smile that's going to last all day!
Think about you –
Just how much my mind wanted to say.

Last night, I know, I really wish
To jump and drive, to see and kiss.
Best things? A mofo my life. I know.
Be in your arms, my dear? Always on!

GLC Gala Weekend + Arts Fest Mural

I often look for my academic planner to make sure i include whatever that I wanted to. Sometimes when i try to remember what i did today or yesterday, i imagine a schedule for the day and fill in the empty non-class time with what has happened.

Wednesday Education Fair was a disappointment. Something i was looking forward to to ease my transition, knowing more about education out there. FALSE. knowing more actually makes me feel a bit more lost. I know there are schools everywhere. I just need to figure out where i can be teaching. There were lines of people to talk to representatives, and everyone was wearing a suit. Intimidating.

Thursday
Had a nice chat with Mike S. He talked about how after graduation, nobody really expects you to be or do something specific. It's time to explore, go out and have fun. Road trips and adventures. I would love that. Only i don't know if anything of this sort would happen. I can only hope and make plans. Future works without my consent :)

Friday
Started on the Art's Fest banner. i really like ours. Michelle and I finished it Sat. 1-4.30pm. It was interesting working in colab with her. Ideas bounce back and forth, and i was quite protective of the piece. There were times when i'd think the part is done, but she would still work on it. It ended up looking bonkers amazing anyway :)



Art concept: "What grows in your garden?"
I had love/passion as main theme and red/black is duality that is love/passion - positive and negative sides. Words are there to help in stitching the painting with the idea. I am pleased with the result.
9x6ft. Never worked with anything this large. It was great. Winston helped. As i was going at it Friday night, a professor walked by saying: "You're not affraid to paint, are you?" It was a great compliment, because it made me realize that if materials are not my concern, i can go wild at it. I NEED to have more freedom of this sort. It consumes me and my imagination and organic artistic growth comes out.

GLC Gala was lots of fun. My legs were sooo tired next day. Lots of dancing. Michelle and I were recovering with Winston and Heroes. We haven't see that show and it's really good. We're at season 1.
Jeremiah came from Cali to chill for a weekend. It was somewhat bizzare and awesome to see him after a year or so. He hasn't changed much but was uber happy to see lots of BC kidz and lots of love.

Things to look forward to:
Marathon Monday (18th), 4.20 and Easter are all coming. The month of April will fly FAST. Also, because i will be graduating in about 50days. May 23rd is the date. Weird to think about it. Most college kids dread the day. They dread future, unknown. Real life. Pshh real life started when i was about 11, and had my first crush on one of my classmates. Been living ever since.


Today is April 3rd, 2011. I am alive. Happy. Present.