More thoughts - It's Snowing on April 1st. (hours before actually)

I am thinking. about my cut on my pinkie finger, from the blender i washed yesterday to make a milkshake (banana, Klondike ice cream, peach yogurt, milk). It has been constantly reminding me of present moment and of things we use without thinking. Such as a pinkie finger.
Read couple of Post Secrets. They are good. Because they are raw humanity at it's core - no judgement. People do it not to satisfy anyone but to express oneself. Safely. How hard is it to speak what is on your mind in our society? I don't know. I often have thoughts that if shared with people.... I would be either in a clinical trial or under strict supervisions. Of "doctors" and "professionals". This is why my thoughts are NOT who i am. They are just simply part of experience. Our mind is trained to constantly think of things. No matter how vulgar, odd, misshapen thoughts are. When i drive, i often think of ways to crash the car. what if i just speed up, close my eyes, take the wrong turn. How would the crash feel? would i survive? would the other survive? How easy it is to die on our present days. Opportunities are limitless, just use your imagination. Life and death are actually the same concept. We are living. yet we are dying at the same time. Since the moment our cell separated into two. The copier is flawed. Flawed with meaning.
what would my funeral be like?

These thoughts are not suicidal, just imaginative.